Running

The last guy I dated never understood that running wasn’t something I did, but rather who I was. Running is what defined me in a way so absolute and so pure that no other thing on Earth came close to it.

When I run I am the best version of myself. I am light, and free, and happy, and when I run there is part of myself that gets to just be and that is a wonderful thing.

He never understood that I needed to go for a run. Not because I wanted to or because I felt fat, but because that’s when I got to be me, and I needed that. Him and I didn’t work out because he never understood that part of me. He never understood that running completed my life and myself. He never got that, and I had no way of impressing that upon him and so we didn’t belong together.

If you cannot look into my eyes and see that running is part of my soul then we do not belong together. Happiness for me is running and I smile when I run and I laugh and I cry and it is everything. I never get to fully be Wendy except for when I am out there running, and some people don’t get that. It’s okay, they can’t all be runners.

But I am. Running is what defines me and it is what will for the rest of my life. If you can’t see me in that context then you are not meant to be a fixture in my life, but rather a passing thought. Someday I will find the man who sees that in me, and then I will get to be Wendy all the time, not just when I run.

Shape You, Love You, Control You

As always it is clear to me that we are in control of our lives. We have the power to make ourselves happy or sad or better or worse.

We are in control of how we treat others, how we love others, and how we do the same to ourselves.

Know that you are worth as much love as you give to others every day. Know that there is something inside you worth fighting like hell for. That girl in you who is waiting to be molded into the wonderful, stunning, and full soul that you want to be is in there. So fight for her.

The Goal

I have a lot of large goals for myself. The problem with large goals is that they can seem unmanageable and so you quit. Thus, I have decided to set a few small goals for myself.

Goals:

1. Lose 10 pounds by September 1st

I have a whole month, five weeks actually, to dedicate to getting serious about my health. I have put on a few pounds this summer, nothing extremely noticeable, but enough that I would like to trim down a bit before I head back to Emerson. I know that this will be a crazy semester and a crazy year, so I need to get back into a good rhythm when it comes to working out and eating healthy.

That is my goal for August. It is a very reasonable goal and I have no doubt that I can do it.

2. Get my mile time down to 8 minutes

Before my injury I was pretty consistently running an 8:15-8:30 minute/mile person. I would like to get down to 8 minute miles in an attempt to push myself and do better. This will be part of my training for a half-marathon that I will be running in November. I want to prove to myself that I still have speed in me and that I will not be defined by my knee injury.

3. Make it to a cross fit class

My goal at the beginning of the summer was to try cross fit. Well with only a month left, I am not sure if I will be getting it done. I’d love to try it with a friend but haven’t quite found anyone up for the challenge. Hopefully soon I’ll take the leap and see what the craze is all about.

4. Go to the November Project

Boston is lucky enough to house a free workout group called the November Project who runs group workouts. I have been a little too shy to try it, but I am determined to do it by the end of September!

5. Complete a push-up

That’s right ladies and gentlemen, I still have yet to do a proper push-up with good form. I’m hoping that with some consistent effort that I can make it happen! By the end of August I will be able to do a full push-up!

Remember how important it is to set little goals for yourself. It is so much easier when you know that there is something tangible in the near future for you to touch as opposed to looking at your big goals and getting scared.

Healthy Living

Eating healthy is my biggest downfall. I will run as man miles as you ask me to and lift as many days a week as you see fit, but when you tell me to put down the chocolate and practice portion control, I go a little nuts.

I think this all stems from the fact that I have a fairly addictive personality. Fact: I am addicted to running. Tell me I can’t run for a week and you will hear a large groan followed by mental preparations of my runs for the week. I’m not very good with the word no, and the same goes for food.

So when it comes to eating healthy I can usually do pretty good until either mid-afternoon or post-dinnertime. There is something about those two times that leave me wanting to heave my entire body into a bag of chips and follow it up with an entire chocolate cake. Now I can typically curb myself from doing that, but a fair share of donuts have crept into my life just because they’re quick and easy and gone so quickly that it’s almost like you never ate them. This is blatantly false, but still this is how crazy, obsessive people rationalize.

But I honestly do want to commit to eating healthy because I will never achieve the best shape of my life eating chicken quesadillas every weekend. The plan is to write everything down, to always have healthy snacks handy, and to learn how to say no.

The word is only two letters after all so it isn’t really that crazy to use. Just say no to sweets and soon you’ll stop craving them. Say no to a handful of chips at the Mexican restaurant that you and all your friends posted up at and soon you won’t want them.

The key to healthy eating is not necessarily focusing on your goal weight, but how great you feel when you eat good food. My body and my mind are so refreshed when I nourish my body well, and I know that better than anyone.

So commit to kicking your bad habits to the curb and you’ll be exactly where you want to be before you know it!

Five Health Downfalls

We all have those fitness and health things that we are just awful at. Whether it is laying off the chocolate or finishing our abs workout, we all have things we don’t like. I’m going to share some of my fitness and health downfalls so maybe you can see where you’re coming up short too and maybe make a change!

1. Stretching

I never stretch after I workout. It is such a bad habit to get into and leaves me sore and tight for days. The problem with not stretching is that I can’t help my muscles heal and elongate. By stretching them I keep them healthy, so I need to work on that.

Try grabbing some ground right after a run and stretching out or even incorporating it into your bedtime routine. Stretch it out before hopping into bed to help limber you up.

2. Finishing my workout

I can have an amazing cardio session and then totally skimp out on core work. I am notorious for leaving the weight room before finishing my arms workout too.

I think the best way to combat that is to pick five moves and make sure they are done when you leave the gym. Don’t necessarily make them your favorite either. Mix it up so that you’re hitting the spots and the routines that you hate.

3. Not hydrating

I never drink enough water. I’ve been trying to get better but I’m not always on top of it.

The key is to make sipping on your water part of all the small habits in your day. When you’re at your desk at work take a swig, or when you wake up drink a glass of water. Stay consistent and drink up! Having a fun water bottle doesn’t hurt too. I like to set goals for myself, like drink seven water bottles and then you can watch some Netflix tonight.

4. Reaching for the sweets

I am always way too quick when I reach for the sweets. My chocolate craving cannot be conquered.

But a good trick is to have a cup of tea or an apple if you’re really craving something sweet. Drink water to avoid your craving helps too! Remember, everything in moderation.

5. Over-working your body

I always push myself too hard. But since my knee injury I have been taking cues from my body. I can’t run back to back days anymore without pain and I have to be aware of that. I also know I need to focus on strength training since cardio gives me a lot of pain.

The key is switching things up. Try yoga or cross fit or swimming. Don’t be exclusive with your workouts.

Try to conquer your downfalls this week!

Do it for You

Remember that you are doing this for you. You are recreating your body and pushing yourself to be healthier and fitter for yourself. You aren’t doing this for your mom, dad, best friend, boyfriend, society, or the media.

You are doing this because you love yourself and you want to be walking around in a body that you love and that you can embrace. Love who you are and work towards being a better version of yourself every day.

You are working towards bettering yourself, and no one else is a measuring stick of that. Love you and focus on you. No one else can do a better job of being you than you so fight for yourself and who you want to be.

Focus on Yourself

Don’t spend your life focused on other people, spend your life focused on yourself. I am as guilty as anyone at comparing myself to other people. But it shouldn’t be about other people, it should be about me. Focus on yourself and that is how you’ll find happiness.