This year has been quite the year. I’m sure many of you are currently surrounded by your family and friends reflecting on this crazy year. So, I thought it would be fun to break down my year for you guys too.
I honestly wasn’t sure if I was gonna survive 2013 when January hit. Suddenly I was enmeshed in the world of Emerson College Varsity Softball and I had never been more scared in my whole life. I was coming onto a team that I didn’t know, with girls I didn’t know, and a sport that I loved but I knew that I wasn’t brilliant at. But, by May I had fallen for them. By the end of our season I had discovered that my team was the best thing that ever happened to me.
It was girls on my team that made me think about the decision to become a vegetarian and to get seriously fit, which I did. After our spring break trip to Florida I committed myself to working out everyday and eating cleanly. I lost weight and I felt great. I looked great and I was much happier in my skin.
Once summer hit, I was in for a whirlwind of unhappiness because I had to be away from my team and all the friends and structure that college gave me. I slipped back into my old ways of choosing food when I was bored instead of doing something more productive with my time. By the end of the summer I was depressed and had gained quite a bit of weight.
But then there was September, glorious, wonderful, magical September, which meant going back to school and being surrounded by everything and everyone I loved. It is between September and now, December 31st, 2013, that the largest changes in my life occurred.
In that four month span I found myself. I found what I loved and I did it everyday. I found the people who made me smile and I made them a fixture in my life. I fell in love. I fell in love with myself and with my body for the first time in 19 years. That is the most beautiful thing that happened to me in 2013.
I have worked so hard to get the body I have. In those four months I lost 17 pounds and I’m not sure what Christmas Break may have set me back, but I am insanely proud of those pounds that I lost. Losing that weight helped me find myself, it helped me find my love of health and fitness, and my desire to share it with the world.
2013 is the year that I became myself, so honestly, it’s a little sad to see it end. I loved myself and my life and the people in it more than I have ever loved. I made great friendships and continued to develop stronger ones as well. I dedicated my life to health and fitness, and, I started this blog. This year I got to be a part of all of your lives and that is so beautiful.
This year I saw acts of determination and hard work pay off. I saw my body transform. I saw the Emerson Men’s Basketball team beat the number one ranked school in the division. I saw an entire city pull together when terror struck it, and I am proud to call myself a Bostonian. I saw beauty, and magic, and love. I saw the most beautiful and most terrible parts of myself in 2013.
When I look back at what this year gave to me, tears come to my eyes. In 2013 I created some of the best friendships of my life, I lived in the best city in the world, I found the things I loved and I dedicated myself to them. And I fell in love. 2013 was pretty special and it is hard for me to let it go. It was the year that I was happiest in, the year that I felt most alive in, the year that I became myself in, so yes, I will miss it. But, if that is what I found in 2013 I cannot wait to see what 2014 brings to me, the me that loves myself and my life and the world in which I live. Cheers to 2014, may it bring me as much happiness and love as 2013 did.